I did have a plan. Then I got two hours sleep and forgot the plan for tonight. When I arrived I found all the regulars were back except the one who was there last week. Easy I thought just teach last weeks lesson again. I did start doing that then got side tracked. Tonight we did tenshinage and ikkyo ura. Ikkyo was from katate dori, kata dori, ushiro ryotekatate dori and another thing with lapel grab oh and from knife attack too. To finish we did randori. I had low expectations given my sleep deprivation but really enjoyed teaching. There was a buzz about the training and a few moments of realisation. I made Gary wear a brown belt and told him he is 1st kyu now. Apparently I can do that. How can the person who has taught me everything be graded lower than me? That’s silly. He was doing some spectacular high falls tonight. I’m getting more confident with the beginners so I’m starting to let them throw me around more too. My elbow was really sore tonight, just as I thought it was fixing. I like taking more ukemi it’s important. Need to sleep…..oh and I applied for a new job which is quite unsettling and I’m not entirely sure I want it but I do need to get out of teaching- that’s a story for another time.
It was a tiny class tonight with just me and one student. Sure I know there will be quiet nights but I do feel a bit flat about it. I still need to advertise and this might give me the shove I need to actually sort it out. Gary is away in Edinburgh so I’ve had a packet of crisps and an apple today. Lack of food doesn’t help the mood I know but I was deep in concentration today so food didn’t cross my mind. World events are troubling to say the least so I’m trying not to watch the news or read all the nonsense on Facebook. It was good to have a reason to get out of the house tonight and I enjoyed being thrown around more than I usually am.
Following the pattern of looking at one thing in detail we did ikkyo from karate dori ura tonight. Then we played with knife defence and did some iriminage and kaiten nage. We finished with the usual weapons of 5 suburi and the 6 count jo kata. Wednesday, I will advertise on my day off and hopefully get a few more folk on the mat next week before all the Christmas stuff steals them away.
Life seems to be sorting out and becoming a little calmer again and I am regaining the strength and fitness I lost recently. Despite feeling more on top of things I still haven’t got round to advertising the adults club. It could all change though since one of my kids is determined to help me grow the club and has already made posters and flyers. Fingers crossed that her enthusiasm continues into handing out flyers and putting up posters!
Only five of us training tonight with the two women still saying they will come next week since there was an event they were both at tonight. We did yonkyo and a few other things. Old suff keeps popping back into my head and I don’t have words for the techniques! My first teacher didn’t always have names for everything. We practiced the first 5 jo suburi and the 6 count kata. Gary won’t be there next week so I will have to pick someone else to throw around. I feel like my aikido is getting better still even without doing so much practice myself. I think the repetition of teaching beginners has really helped me – I’m looking forward to going down to train in Glasgow at the end of the month. Hope they can see and improvement too.
Tonight I was expecting two new beginners. Neither turned up but one says she will be there next week. We need some women on the mat. The men are lovely but we need balance. Today it was sankyo, having done nikyo last week and ikkyo the week before. It went well. They learn fast. One of them is still struggling with rolls. Hopefully it will get easier for him soon.
We seem to have acquired a first kyu student which is great but leaves me wondering about grading. I’m happy to do kyu grades but I guess my teacher in Glasgow would be the best be for shodan and above. I hadn’t really given it much thought since I’m a long way off another grading and until now my highest grade student is 4th kyu. It’s also bugging me that Gary is ungraded. He’s taught me everything I know and supports me every lesson it’s crazy that he is ungraded ( technically 3rd kyu Birankai and 4 th kyu Iwama). I need to get this sorted out.
Life still feels chaotic and I’m not really sure what to teach at kids club tomorrow. Maybe it will all settle down this week.
Ahh…and so I am regaining some sort of even keel having been away on adventures then returned to work. Sailing in Greece was a bitter-sweet mix of tranquility and terror. The first week we learned how to sail with an experienced sailor called Philip. He was lovely and his passion for sailing permeated every day so we quickly learned how to sail a boat in the sunny and calm Ionian Sea. The second week we were on flotilla with ten other boats and were sent out into a storm of force 6 gusting 7 winds. The waves were 3m high and we had to quickly learn, using empirical methods, how to survive. We did survive and would sail again just not on flotilla. This has as much to do with my aversion to people and noise as well as not wanting to be sent out in weather we were unprepared for. With just Gary and I on the boat we divided the tasks with me mostly steering and him running about the boat sorting sails. We work well together-even in crazy high pressure, zero visibility, lightening and thunder crashing all around us. Interestingly I found that I don’t get seasick. I don’t think my body knows its getting wobbled around so I was fine when Gary was green. I did fall over a lot but thats nothing new and even Gary fell once in the storm.
We saw the boat above in the Neilson harbour and it captured my imagination. Wooden rather than the modern monstrosity we were sailing and looking prepared for any adventure with a wind turbine and everything needed for long voyages. I loved the small space, isolation and being utterly in the middle of nature. I just need to learn how to sail better.
Mondays adult class was small so some advertising is required to build up the numbers again. It felt good to be back on the mat after a 2 week break and we mainly focussed on nikyo from katate dori. One of the beginners who is ex services and quite large looked at me in shock when I put nikyo on him and he exclaimed,”wow thats really effective!” I was sort of pleased that he felt it to be so effective but a little irritated that he might think I would be unable to be effective when training with him. The guys in Glasgow are all really big and invited me down to train in the yudansha class today. I really wanted to go but I’m still in a fairly disorganised state so needed to stay here and get my head together. I will go and train with them next month.
Its not just getting in at 3am then going to work at 8am or the lack of meditation that jumbled me up. This week there was the shocking news that a boy at a local school was stabbed by a fellow pupil and died. I’ve taught at that school and I have friends with children at that school so to hear a child being killed there was just horrible. Utter devastation for two families, two local families. I wonder if any of my pupils are ever pushed close to such extreme violence and I wonder if any of my pupils are carrying weapons. Suddenly teaching chemistry seems so irrelevant, should I not be teaching them how to cope? how to not turn to violence? I have no idea how to do that but I wish I could. Tuesdays kids club will have a discussion about knives I’m not sure quite what to say but we can’t pretend it hasn’t happened.
I’m just back from 2 weeks if sailing in Greece. I took class tonight but will write when I’ve had enogh sleep. Zzz
There was a very different kind of feeling on the mat tonight. Someone I used to train with at Tenshinkan came along and Roger came too. The numbers of beginners was down since one has had an accident falling off a bus and one had a parents evening thing tonight. That meant beginners always trained with someone experienced and sometimes got two experienced people to train with. Everyone worked really hard. We only did iriminage and a couple of kokyu nage but that left time for Roger to take the class for weapons. He did 6 count jo kata and some jo deflection thingies.
We are having a break for the school holidays and it was a good way to end the term. I’m feeling more positive about the adults class again now.